I have gotten into the groove of the Fast and it is becoming much easier. I am into the rhythm of making my own unleavened bread and crackers. I am eating a lot healthier and have been physically feeling great. The last two weeks have been packed, but I feel like my energy level has been constant and that I can handle it all. Being off caffeine has made a big difference in that regard. I wake up awake and fall asleep easily. I like not "needing" something to get going. I might continue that after the Fast.
The Spiritual aspect to it has left me with more questions then answers. I feel like I am floating between thoughts and ideas and just can't make up my mind on what exactly I believe. Husband and I are struggling to really connect to our current congregation. We are involved, but things still seem a little off and I am not sure why. The children are also not 100% happy there. They go to a Lutheran school and lean towards Christianity. While we like having them in a UU church on Sunday, there is a low undercurrent of anti-Christianity (not from the minister) that pops up once in awhile that makes the kids feel uncomfortable. I struggle with them on how to explain what exactly UU is and its deeper theological value.
This brings up the next issue. I have been working to start an interfaith environmental group in Missouri. Our launch is this Thursday (yay!!). Through this experience, I have been talking with folks from all sorts of theological perspectives. I appreciate their definitive understanding of their history, traditions, and theological perspectives. They are passionate about their faith. It has made me ask, why am I not as passionate about UU anymore? This is the question I hope to figure out during Lent.