Thursday, February 21, 2013

Daniel Fast Update 1

After three successful days I completely fell off the wagon.  Despite my preparations and good intentions, taking a four day trip proved to be too much for me and continuing the Fast.  I tried to not let my Catholic guilt get a hold of me, but figured God would be ok with it since I was going to a full Catholic funeral AND had to say the whole rosary.  Now that I am home, though, I have recommitted to it. That hardest parts have been the requirement to only drink water and eat no leavened bread.  This means I can not have coffee, tea or my yummy homemade pizza dough.   I realize that this is very small, but I am finding that I have to make just about everything from scratch.  I like its emphasis on whole foods and hope that this continues on after the Fast. I am still working on the spiritual aspect.  Since I have just begun (again), I haven't felt a whole lot of difference but will continue with the suggestions in the book and reflect on how they relate to my personal spirituality.

Tuesday, February 19, 2013

Being #1

This past weekend I headed back to South Dakota for my grandma's funeral.  To break up the thirteen hour drive, I spent the night at my mom's in Iowa.  I guess being a mother was on my mind.  I was sad that my dad lost his, glad I was seeing mine, and feeling a little disorientated about not being a mom to my three kids for the next three days.  When I got to my mom's house, she immediately started fussing over me.  Did I want some food or a drink, how was my drive, did I want to watch a movie, etc.  All of a sudden, it was all about me.  I was the center of attention.  I guess it was something I needed, because it felt great.  It wasn't about my kids, or husband, or sister, or sister in law - just me.  It really just hit me about how lucky I am to have a mother that is my cheerleader.  No matter what, she is in my corner.  I hope my kids feel that.  To me, it is the essence of motherhood.

Wednesday, February 13, 2013

Daniel Fast for Lent

I usually give up something for Lent.  Growing up Catholic, it was just the thing to do (yes, I do realize there are reasons behind it...).  Typically it was coffee, caffeine, chocolate or TV.  In all honesty, it was never a huge challenge and not much of a time of sacrifice and self-reflection.  This year I decided to do something different. I have been feeling a little directionless and unfocused both spiritually and in general life/living.  There have been a lot of losses lately and they have weighed heavily on me.  In addition to the deaths, several friends have moved away and I feel the hole they have left acutely.  I need to make a conscientious effort to figure out how to become more centered.

I was reading in the local paper about how many Christians are doing the Daniel Fast. It combines very healthy/clean eating with daily devotions.  This really appealed to me.  I like the whole-food aspect to it, but appreciate the daily spiritual component.  I decided to use The Daniel Fast by Susan Gregory as a guide.  While this book's daily devotional might not appeal to a lot of UUs, they are something you could use as a springboard to deepen your own theology.  This won't be easy, but it isn't meant to be. I will keep you posted.

Tuesday, February 12, 2013

Loss

My grandmother unexpectedly passed away last night. She had very advanced Alzheimer's, but was in overall good health.  I am feeling a lot of mixed emotions.  I am very sad for the loss, but also recognize that her quality of life was greatly diminished.  We were very lucky that the whole family got to see her this past summer.  I like to think that there was a flicker of recognition when we visited her in the nursing home in South Dakota.  I guess I knew deep down that this might be the last time we see her,but  I was hoping that I was wrong.  She was a complicated person who did not have an easy life. But, there was no doubt in the love she had for grandpa and her seven kids.  I hope she is at peace.

Friday, February 1, 2013

A Long Process

Wow, it is a lot of work getting a group started.  At times I have just wanted to quit.  But, I can't.  I really believe in this idea and want Missouri to be a part of it.  I am super excited that it is really starting to take off.  Yesterday, I worked a lot on revamping the website: Missouri Interfaith Power & Light. It is a work in progress, but I think I need to take a step back and let my eyes rest a bit.  Later today I, and another organizer, are meeting with a local group to see if they will act as our fiscal sponsor. So many details. I have big dreams for this group, though!  If your state has an affiliate, I encourage you to get involved! Together, we really can make a difference.